I was feeling a little stuck for ideas for today's post I'm just not feeling that inspired by anything recently. So I thought it'd be interesting to just write a little update post just to let y'all know what's going on with me.
1/ UNI
A couple of months ago I finished my first year of uni. To sum up my year in one word I would have to say it was extremely overwhelming. I didn't comprehend for a second just how full on university would be. I plan on doing a "Round Up" post about my entire first year experience of university so I don't want to delve too much into it here but let's just say I'm happy and extremely positive and excited to see where the second year will take me.
2/ JOB
I'm kind of notorious for never being able to get a job. I apply for pretty much every job I see advertised but never seem to get it. Just bad luck? Maybe... I'm in a fortunate position where having a job is not something I necessarily NEED to do, with university and my student loan etc I survive. But I do have bills to pay. Again, I'm very fortunate to be living at home but by no means do I live for free. I pay rent weekly to my parents, I pay my phone bill, my phone insurance, my travel costs and any extras that I want such as materials for uni. And to be honest the thought of having to spend the next few months at home being bored is not appealing, I WANT a job to keep me busy. To feel like I'm contributing something to society. Everyone thinks I'm mad. Fingers crossed I get a job soon though.
3/BLOG
As of late my blog has been going really well. I'm enjoying writing my posts and most of all I'm enjoying being out of my comfort zone. Taking outfit photos, or photos of me doing my make-up was never something I thought I'd be confident enough to do. But I did it. And yes, my outfit photos definitely need improving on but I'm getting there. Everything is happening organically at the moment and I'm just letting the chips fall where they may. I've also been enjoying writing my blogs (I have another blog dedicated to my art) just the notion of sitting down at my desk with my laptop and a cup of green tea just typing away is something quite therapeutic. And knowing that not many people are reading is quite comforting as well because I feel like I only have myself to impress (although my standards are quite high!)
4/FRIENDSHIPS
Kind of a tricky one for me especially considering I don't really have many of them. Over the past year I have definitely isolated myself, although this is largely my fault, and the fault of some others, I feel it was important to take some time off from people. It gave me a chance to make some new friends at university, to evaluate some existing friendships and most of all to get to know myself a little better. In some ways I have never felt more myself than I have as I sit here typing away to you but at the same time I have never felt more disconnected. I am content in my own company now, I feel comfortable with myself. But when I am with my friends, especially friends I've known a long time, I just constantly question myself. I don't feel comfortable with my "friends". To be quite honest they make me feel very rubbish about myself and just add to my already existing paranoia. But I've learnt that I don't need them. I don't need them to be me. And most of all I've adapted to rely and depend on myself where as they rely and depend on each other and other people. I've experience being within a "friendship group" and it's safe to say that, that isn't for me. I much prefer my own company.
5/ HEALTH
I've been on my weight-loss journey properly for nearly a month now and it's been going great! I don't know exactly how much I've lost in terms of lbs or stones but beginning this I was a size 34 (nearly 35) inch waist and now I'm a 31. Not only that but I feel better within myself. I can see some muscle definition now, clothes are looser and I'm happier with my body. I'll endevour to keep you updated on how I get on!
Well that turned into a bit of a ramble! But I feel it's important to do these updates every so often not only to catch up with you guys but to catch up with myself and keep a record of where I was at on the 4th July 2014.
How have you guys been? Let me know in the comments.
xo
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